Last August when I graduated the HA I knew that IF I didn’t go to South Africa I would end up back at Teen Mania. OK? Just so we all understand I kinda saw this move coming. What I didn‘t see coming was me having to making one of the most difficult decisions of my young life.
Before I go into the details I want you to know that I stand by EVERYTHING I said in my last post about being an MA in the coffee shop.
My undergrad year I called churches and youth pastors to talk to them about coming to the Acquire the Fire(http://acquirethefire.com/) in Houston. I talked them about the process, life, their struggles, opportunities for them, and really anything they wanted. I prayed for them day after day. I prayed for their kids and their families. At some points I even cried for them. When it finally came time for the event and I could put faces to names I flipped out with excitement just hoping that everything would be to their liking. As a teenager there was a lot of pressure talking to pastors and youth pastors trying to convince them to bring their youth group on to a youth conference with thousands of other teens and all the logistics that go with that. During that weekend, after meeting all the youth pastors and the likes, ATF has a session just for the leaders. During that session they get poured into by an ATF staff member; after that there is a time for prayer and worship. It’s just a time for them to get pray and connect with God with out having to worry about what their group is doing and what not. I got to pray with some of the pastors and God just gave me such a heart for them. He broke my heart for them and their groups. I heard story after story about how close they were to giving up and they needed vision/strength to move this mountain in front of them…I was broken before God right there with them. It was during that hour or so that all the long, hard, exhausting hours became worth it. I don’t know if any of you have ever worked backstage at a conference or a concert but it’s more work in 27 hours than most people do in a work week. My feet, back, legs, and head hurt, I hadn’t had much to eat, and very little sleep yet none of that mattered once I saw how tired those youth leaders were. Even now my heart breaks for them.
The point of me telling you all of this is that this past weekend at ATF, a full year since God broke my heart for them, He reminded me of what He did in me that that weekend and how He used me. Although working in the Coffee Shop on campus would be amazing and there would be ton of ministry moments for me with the undergrads I know that I know that I know my place for this next season is on a bus with about 22 other wonderful individuals driving around the United States putting on and running Acquire the Fire youth conferences. When people ask me why I do what I do I will be able to tell them it is a labor of love and I do it for all the tired, worn down youth pastors and leaders. I do it for the parents that have never seen their teen so on fire or broken before the Lord. I do it because He called me. It was an amazingly tough decision simply because I know I would be comfortable on campus and I felt like by not being there I would be letting down some people I care about. As I was reminded though that my “job” is to please God; not man.
Sooo with all of that being said if everything goes well and I’m right that this is what God wants me to do tomorrow I will commit to being on the Ministry Team. I don’t know how everything will work out but I know that my God has it all under control.
I enjoy keeping all of you( and by all of you I mean my mom and maybe the two other people that actually read this) updated on my life. There will be more to come!!!
Little side note here: I will have to fund raise so be praying about donating so I can fulfill God’s plan for my life. I’ll post something else about that later but just keep it in the back of your mind and be checking facebook for updates 🙂
Blessings,